Monday - Itis
Dont you just feel like this on Mondays??? Well today saw a really nice perky morning, sun shining, with a nice coastal breeze. Got my ride and walk in as planned before mid morning. Then the clouds came over and the temperature dropped some what. And whoa now it is wet and wet and still wet. Hhmm may have to pick munchkin up via the car this arvo, I am not feeling much like riding in the rain. Still not focussed on the food side, which is something I think will come as the week goes on, but I did eat breakfast. Took my first week photos and measurements this morning. Eeek, thought I might have lost a bit, but no, still the same, maybe a little more pudge than I thought, going back over the last lot of pics I took. Oh well life is like that, you gotta start somewhere.
Had some interesting fun reading blogs this morning. Very interesting with what and how others write. Very inspiring actually.
So this week is my reflection week. I think I am going to reflect at how much I have changed since starting with IBO and how much my mindset has changed. My habits are the same so I need to work on those somewhat to make some real headway with my slimmer me. I have this image in my head and I feel that I am looking good and feel slimmer and more tight, until I see a photo of myself and get ashamed and feel sick in the guts with disgust at the picture. God how do others see me???? I seriously sometimes wonder if I am one of those people that get picked out in a crowd and sniggered at behind my back. I so try to ignore this feeling when I go out but once you see a reflection or an image of yourself in the flesh, it does get you thinking OMG maybe I am one of those people being stereotyped!!! I cant help keeping this at the for front of my mind, maybe it can help me in not slipping up and go back to old habits. So my reflection in all this is realistically, a size 14 is BIG. I cannot kid myself anymore, it is big and I really dont like being one either. I am plump and over weight and I need to stop thinking that I am not. It wont get me any closer to my goals if I dont start being realistic with myself.
So as out pouring as it is, I am now accepting that I have some pretty terrible habits and will make changes as needed to better myself. As you all say, one day at a time, so this to me is one day at a time. Today it started with being active, maybe tomorrow it will start with the food intake side of it. Regularity is a key.
Parting views for today,
8 comments:
Love your ending quote Rachael! The more you overcome, the richer the reward and satisfaction.
Hope your 'reflection' week gives you some wonderful insights. :)
I feel like that too Rach. What do people think when they look at me? I still feel like ME but then, yeah I catch a glimpse of my size 16 reflection in the window or something...*sigh*.
Hi girls,
Yep i think the reality of my unhealthy years has hit home. Now only 4 weeks to go to my mums wedding and I really dont want to be thought of as the same old same old.
Reflection week - Bring it on
awww... Rachel.... ladies... you need to see yourselves positively! all of you! if you look in the mirror and see bad things, then you will always be able to justify habits that reflect that... i believe that positive imagery is a powerful thing... if you come to a point where you want to binge or skip a workout, it's so much easier to justify it if you think you are 'fat' or whatever you feel... because that's what a fat person would do right??? if you believe something enough, it will come true or stay true... it breaks my heart to hear this, as i know you are all strong and know that the power of positive thinking and believing is the way to go! so be strong and keep seeing yourself in that POSITIVE light Rach... you need to do that... there is no point trying to 'guilt' your way in to making yourself change :(
i hope you don't mind me making this comment, i just felt sad reading your post Rach and then to see that others are agreeing, i had to say that you are ALL AMAZING and you should keep believing that and every day, do amazing things that keep you amazing :D
kristin xoxo
Hi Kirstin,
Thanks for your post. Yes I agree totally and I suppose I lay myself to the old habit trap. I do try to be really positive and feel absolutly fantastic until I see a recent photo of myself. Seeing my photos this morning made it really hard to see results and I know I am the only responsible one to it and the only one that can change it. I do feel somewhat better when I vent it out in the blog or emails because it reinforces me to keep going and to try and achieve some results. I feel quite elated when I write it down because it doesnt fester in my mind, almost like a dump ground for the excess emotions and baggage that creeps in when you do a pic or weigh in. I need to work on the determination and dedication bit more, and find some way to reward my efforts when I do achieve something.
And yes your comments are appreciated and I am hearing them to.
Thanks
Racheal, hope you don't mind me popping by. I started at IBO on Feb 9. I just read your post & nearly fell off my chair when I read, "size 14 is big". Wow! You're only one size away from a 12, which is considered standard (ask Laura Ashley), and which is one size away from a 10, which is definitely in the skinny department.
NOTE: Was compelled to remove my previous comment due to the overwhelming numer of typos (& I haven't even had any wine).
Hi Robyn,
No probs. Yeah I know I should really look at it like that. Sometimes it just gets all on top of you that you forget where your going. I reguarly tell myself the same thing, just need to get more motivation and belive in myself. Dont worry about the typos, I have those moments quite reguarly.
Thanks for looking.
Rachael
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