Sunday sunday sunday. Oh how I am dreading the next 2 weeks of school holidays. NSW seems to be last on the line for holidays this time round. So another hair pulling 2 weeks with a house full of kids from all places. What to do, hhhmmm not a lot I must say.

Well I decided that I should get on and post on my blog seen as though I am a all talk no action kind of gal. Every time I put my "I;m gonna do this and that", I fall way off the mark and stop. How stupid I say. Still trying to figure it out actually why I do that. Any ideas anyone??

So - things have been pretty slow up here, finding it hard to deal with alot of things at the moment. 1 being hubby still trying to find work. Arrgghh it is really hard not having a regular income other than the government and let me tell you, IT SUCKS severely. I didn't in my wildest dreams think i would get stuck in the rut of looking for work that can be a life saving income. So in saying all that, I ha vent been able to do all the things I wanted to such as be a regular part of the Tony Ferguson program. Out the window that went and the terrible thing was, I really liked the shakes, they tasted absolutely fantastic and fill the spot. So back to square one and trying to make the changes I need to get back into some sort of reality of a routine.

Frankie, my hands applaud you for having the MOTIVATION and the DRIVE to getting out into your gym ALL THE TIME. I really don't know how you do it but you are absolutely fab for doing it. I have a gym on the deck that I see everyday right there if you know what I mean, but jesus I just cant get myself out on it. Too many distractions and it is a real oh well I need to do this and that. So I haven't done anything but 1 workout on it and guess what? Its rusting up. Oooops. Salt air getting to it more than me LOL.... So I have been tooing and frowing for the past few weeks how to get myself into something and motivated, so did join the gym down the road. $10 a week for as many times as I like so not too hard on the purse strings. Very very excited about it and it has made me realise how much I missed it when I moved. I feel a little bit more worthy of myself now that I have to physically go and mingle with other people and do things. I only joined last Tuesday but have been sussing the place out. Have done 2 Pilate's sessions and half hour on the tready and elliptical trainer. Oh so good feeling sore I must say. The only sad part of it all is the gym is sooooo old, the machines are old and they make you work harder cause they don't move as swiftly as what I am used to. They have limited weight machines there, and I am still trying to figure out how many of them I can use that were on my previous programs. The free weights area is down stairs into what was know as the "MANS ROOM". Women - what women, none of them use it. Apparently they have been trying to get women down there for the past 18months and no-one is interested. Hhhmm apparently the walls were lined with lady pics, nudey ones I am suspecting and well they pulled them all down cause I think their were some complaints but it still hasn't helped any. God, as I said to the owner, you would think it would be some what of an inspiration actually to see all the pics up there. But anyway, that's their choice I suppose. So as soon as I crack the 80kg mark I think I might brave it down there and start some weighty workouts again.

Still kinda shit on the diet front, this IS MY PROBLEM to all of my issues. I don't eat enough and what I do eat isn't anything special but does nothing for the body or my weight. Smoking still so it too isn't helping. Arrgghh another angle to tackle soon though. So I am not saying I am doing this or that or show my plans at the moment until I get into a routine and can be proud of the routine and have something to report. Just thought I would try this angle and see if I can push myself to be an ACHIEVER.

Hope to get on all your blogs soon and post some comments too, I have LOTS to catch up on.